Shadow

You forgot your shadow,

It didn’t follow you to the grave,

It didn’t follow you into heavens light,

But it came alive at night.

Bring Me Back What Is Mine

Bring me back what is mine

From that long-ignored place.

I’ve spent too long gazing into that darkness

To accept it’s cold, fickle embrace.

Bring me back what is mine,

I beg untoward you.

I assure you, I’ve repented, relented,

So we can return to me and you.

Bring me back what is mine,

This vile desperation

Is poisoning my system, corrupting my heart,

I cannot handle separation

Any longer.

Please,

Bring me back what is mine.

Funeral Arrangements

‘He’s dead!’

They said.

‘Call his family!’

Said one,

‘He has none,’

Said another.

‘Call his friends!’

Said one,

‘He has none,'

Said another.

‘Should we give him a funeral?’

Asked one,

‘We shall give him the funeral of his life!’

Said another,

‘He won’t have one.’

The Tree Spoke to Me

The tree spoke to me,

Her voice tender and weightless,

Her words wise, and ageless:

                                

“The apple does not fall far from me,

But the seeds will travel far away,

Away from me,

I will miss them when they are gone,

I wish they could stay,

Stay with me,

I know they can’t, I know they won’t,

But that doesn’t stop me holding on,

Don’t you see?

The apple is part of me,

And always will be,

You see? You see?”

I looked far and wide,

I looked high and low,

In the Garden of Eden.

But I found no apples, no seeds,

Just a field full of dark, disfigured and lonely weeds.

That's How I Felt Before I Fell

That’s how I felt before I fell.

I felt stupid and fragile.

I was lost in my insignificance.

I felt my individuality being oppressed.

It was a lie however, so I let myself fall.

I was finally free from the naivety of youth.

I had never been so sure about anything.

I felt whole, complete, and content.

That’s what being in love does to you.

Life

It is blinding,

The light we are born into

We stand on our own two feet

Because we are told to.

Then come the lessons,

The learning,

The rhymes,

The rhythm;

We are taught from the beginning we should have a certain disposition.

Take into consideration the fragility of mind

That when we are all children we so commonly find.

There is not one who does not doubt or second guess,

But when life is made in black and white,

There is no multiple choice test.

Then we walk, whether on sand or stone,

We travel the world, ultimately on our own.

Collecting blisters and callouses,

Dead skin,

Dry flesh.

The weight of the world ripping through that fragile mesh.

Now I can feel it,

Coming for me, and me alone.

A static, distorted, ethereal voice

Calling me on the phone.

The darkness creeping,

Lurking,

Just out of sight,

When the day begins to end,

And heralds another night.

And I’m floating

Falling,

Spinning,

Down and down some more.

Into that nothingness

That we all hate and love to ignore.

Where do we all stand

When it all comes to a head?

When the lights fade to blackness

And everyone is dead.

See I don’t think any of us can know

We split the world into molecules,

Particles,

Atoms;

But in what way does that ever help us grow?

There is no encore, nothing follows the end of the show.

At least, not for those-

Those left behind.

Who have nothing but their grief

And very little piece of mind.

From infant to elder,

From unconsciousness to reality,

Our lives are determined,

By a series of technicalities.

And whilst we wander,

Endlessly,

Aimlessly,

Through the turbulent ocean of doubt and uncertainty

Our voyage becomes a one way trip to deception and cruelty.

We shine a light ahead, to see what we must pass

Only to bring into view a cloud of poison gas.

We choke,

Splutter,

Cough,

And gag-

What was my point again?

This journey has rendered me deaf and lame,

I remember now- the potent, unforgiving refrain

Every life ultimately ends the same-

Life is nothing if not a desperate struggle for

Fame,

Pain,

Gain,

Life is nothing, if not a game.

Believe

I believe in nothing, at least that's what I believe. There was a time when I counted each 'tick' of the clock, but all they do is deceive, and run parallel with every 'tock.' So I traded counting for waiting, in the hope it would stop the anticipating, something will happen, something must happen, something would happen, something could happen, but no. 

I believe in nothing, at least that's what I believe I believed. My frustrations were just imaginations, of another character whispering in my ear. Apathy is my defining trait, I've been told... I hear. There are times, moments, fractions of seconds separate from reality, where I might let myself believe in love and spirituality, where the world isn't such a daunting, desolate place, and we aren't just bodies, floating through empty space. I like to keep a safe distance from those moments, and weep as the sight of them passing by, brings another pathetic, self-hating tear to my weary, bloodshot eye.

I believe in nothing, at least that's what I tell myself I believe I believed. That somehow that is justification for me being so passively aggrieved. When In truth I know there is nothing, or little, at the very least, that can be said to solidify the position that my lifespan should be increased in light of others, whose lot is worse than mine, whose misery and suffering I am unable to define, especially in comparison to this life of mine. There is nothing of significance to be said, and yet here it is. I believe in nothing, but I can't believe it's true, I have to believe in something... If not myself, then something, someone... You.